In Conclusion - Wonder Woman [2017] - Captain Steve Trevor (SPOILERS)

[thecrazyalaskan]

Title: In Conclusion
Author: TheCrazyAlaskan
Fandom / Setting: Wonder Woman (2017 film)
Characters / Pairings: Captain Steve Trevor; references to others, implied / background Steve x Diana
Rating: T
Word Count: 537
Warnings / Notes: Spoilers for the 2017 Wonder Woman film; Written for Round 8 of Hurt / Comfort Bingo: Explosion
Summary: Steve Trevor reflects on recent events.

Hey, the movie only makes me cry like a million tears per viewing, why not return the favor?

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I've made my peace with this.

The higher and faster the plane ascends, the smaller the base below becomes. Everything, everyone I know is on the ground, on that base—and that's the way I want to keep it, why this is the only way. It's terrifying—don't get me wrong. I never wanted it to end this way, even though I always knew, in the back of my mind—in the part that only comes out to haunt and torture at night—that it could happen. And yet, after everything I've seen…

I've learned… so much—a lifetime of things, and it's only been a week. Let's ignore the mythological aspect, the part where the gods and goddesses of Ancient Greece are real. The most real things—the things that really, truly matter…

After a war like this, it's so easy to forget that humans can be good—and yet I've seen it, even if I had to be reminded of it. It's not everyday someone comes along to remind you of that, to look at the world with fresh eyes and see goodness and want to help, no matter how fucked up humanity and its beliefs are, no matter how much we might not deserve it.

Part of me hesitates, wondering… Did it really have to be me? The answer comes just as quickly—yes. I could never ask this of anyone else—follow me into literal hell for under the table pay, sure, but not to sacrifice their life like this. And Diana… There's something in her I've never seen, and if I were to survive, would probably never see again. The need to help truth and justice and peace—after four long years, little more than buzzwords and daydreams—win the day, the need to help people.

Even if I didn't love her as much as I do, I could never ask her to do this.

More than I can count have I been accused (sometimes rightfully so) of lying. A few of those times were by Diana herself. I wasn't lying when I said she could save the world. The only thing that's stopping her is that she hasn't seen the world yet. And for what it's worth… I wasn't lying when I said I wished we had more time.

To say it's been a hell of a week would be a hell of an understatement—but I wouldn't trade this past week for anything in the world. I've seen and learned so much, and I know that this… all of this will be worth it.

We're high enough now, probably have been for a while. The pistol feels heavy in my hands, and the click is louder than any cannon. There are no atheists in war, and I'm no exception.

I guess my last thoughts should be pleasant ones… My mind, unbidden (but not without my gratitude) takes me back to when this all started, to being pulled from the wreckage of a German plane, crashed in the sea of an unknown, unmapped island, by a woman I would come to respect and, so help me god, love.

I don't know how or why I crashed on Paradise Island—Themyscira… but looking back, I'm really glad I did.

I've made my peace with this.

Comments

[reinadefuego]

First of all, how dare you make me experience emotions, that is not nice and I didn't want these feels.

Secondly, that was so fucking good and beautiful. Steve choosing to embrace what happens rather than disconnect from it. His decision to get in that plane in the first place, and his wanting more time with Diana.

Oof, I'm gonna have to rewatch the movie just to try and get this knife out of my heart.

This was bittersweet and tearjerking, and I am definitely not okay, but it was wonderful too and God I'd love to see what else you might one day come up with for Wonder Woman fandom.

[thecrazyalaskan]

I apologize for making you feel things / be not okay. If it helps, I almost cried like six times writing this.

Thank you so much for your warm words. <3 I always wanted to believe that he wasn't afraid in the end, and it ended up evolving into this. I'll definitely try to give the Wonder Woman fandom another spin some time!