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Y'know what? I'm pissy and cranky enough that I don't give a shit. Sorry for dumping on your guys, so feel free to ignore, as per standard practice.
 
Why do I feel like I'm fucking isolated from the rest of the world? My communications with the people I care about have gotten so fucking spotty lately it's ridiculous. Additionally, I'm wondering how much the Devil is willing to give me for my soul so I can get some fucking feedback on pretty much everything I post. I just posted "I'll Never Leave" to ff.net, and am expecting zero reviews. I post shit to kink memes and will get zero fills. I posted a request to a fandom rec meme and the dumbest fucking crap posted after me gets answered fucking instantly. I submit shit on DeviantArt and to my various groups and get zero comments. Fuck I don't even get faves anymore.
 
Seriously. Do I have to crack and write Prowl x Jazz? I'm tired of only writing for myself. What do I have to fucking do to appease the world because this is bullshit and getting mightly old, mighty fast.

Damnit

Oct. 5th, 2011 07:37 am
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Thanks for ruining my morning, Deb. Now between that and my kid I'm in for an effing wretched day.

Posted via LiveJournal app for iPhone.

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Anyone who’s new to watching me, be warned, entries like the one below are… sort of common. I’m not proud of this.

 

 

- - - Emo Line - - -  )

 

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To elaborate on last night’s entry:

 

[livejournal.com profile] locoexclaimer  has fallen a little behind on the Write-a-Day fills. I’m getting bogged down with college work and had a minor meltdown last night (long story). We’re both taking a little break; I’m still working on writing (I have two challenges I still need to finish in my free time), in addition to Introduction to Anthropology and History of Alaskan Natives. (The latter, when I mention it, is often shortened to Alaskan History, and is generally complained about, so fair warning.)

 

Just to give you an idea of what I’m working on that isn’t college: I have two commissions for certain I need to finish, another set that I’m still waiting on my details, a kink meme fill or two, a pageview kiriban for someone on DeviantArt, and a little bit of art.

 

Busybusybusy…

 

Until then, stay awesome, everyone! :)

Hiatus

Jul. 28th, 2011 10:00 pm
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Due to circumstances beyond our control, [livejournal.com profile] locoexclaimer  and I are taking a weeklong break from the Write-a-Day.
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Hope everyone had a good Christmas this year. ^^

Much love,
- TCA


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Guess whose dad just called her and asked if she still works at the bank.

Guess what I told him

Guess what kind of mood I'm in now.
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Okay, time for a way less depressing entry. Honestly.

 

Soooo… I’ve started my official job hunt—so far I have one application for a public safety dispatch position. Freaking sweet benefits package—they pay 100% premiums on the health insurance (w00t w00t), $90 / month for water and sewer (I currently pay like $150 / month), union labor and so on. I’m liking this one. I’m going to hit the health corporation and hospital tomorrow. Okay. I can totally do this. The thing that scared me the most about the PS dispatch was for references they said no one outside the US or relatives. Fair enough. But they also said no former employers. Well, slag me in aft; there went what I was hoping would be one of my best references.

 

Dude, I haven’t job hunted in four years. O_o I found the SubWay job through a friend, no searching required, and the bank job found me. Hoo boy… This is scarier than it looks.

 

Let’s see what else… I need another month before Christmas comes. >w< Too much stress, too much stress…!

 

And now it’s time for me to pretend to be smart. I’m watching Cats Don’t Dance, which I haven’t seen since the late 90s, and I noticed something I never really noticed as a kid the first time. Obviously there’s the voice acting—I have a ton amount of Rene Auberjonois since this is just one more example of the range he can pull off. Don Knotts is in there too, and I loved him in Andy Griffith. He’s just kinda lovable. ^^

 

The big thing I’ve noticed, though, is there’s some serious parallels to the US pre-Civil Rights movement. When you look at the costuming and the cars in the movie, you get a sort of Golden Age of Hollywood feel, I’d peg it as being 1920s and 30s. Hell they even mention Clark Gable and you can see a poster for Gone with the Wind in the beginning of the movie. You have the time frame; now consider the two main groups of characters—animals and humans. Look at the interactions between the two—the animals are treated like second-class citizens by the humans. Remember the line, The spotlight will never be one for [animals] like you and me. Given the time frame, I certainly wouldn’t put it past being a metaphor / allegory (unintentional or otherwise) for a pre-Civil Rights timeframe.

 

Just a little thought.

thecrazyalaskan: (Sad Face =()

*raises hand* *closes head in doorframe*

*repeatedly*

I’m a dumbass, I’m a dumbass, I’m a dumbass… I fucked up and now look at what I did to myself.

I know, I need to get my ass back out there and start looking but right now I just wanna die, okay? Let me die and go to hell.

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freaking obsessed with the atomic bombing of Hiroshima in WWII? Really.

I've been hung up on Hiroshima since around this time last year. The atomic bombings fascinate and scare the shit out of me.

Emphasis on scare. I keep wanting to see the damage done to the people from the blast and fallout, but when I do, I can't sleep for weeks. Literally. I know because I've seen it happen to me. I watched the anime Barefoot Gen this summer, about a boy who survived the bombings. It showed in pretty graphc detail... pretty much everything. I never cried so hard in my life, and I couldn't sleep for weeks. I kept seeing the survivors in my totally empty house. And that's a pretty scary sight. Google it if you don't believe me.

Right now? I'm scared shitless again because it's on my mind.
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I'm doing the National Novel Writing Month project, where you write 50,000 words in the month of November-- roughly 1667 words / day. o_o

It starts at midnight local time, so I'm going to be selling my soul in 40 minutes. x3
I'm writing a piece called The Invictus, a Transformers Animated fanfic that explores Prowl's past beyond the series. A prequel of sorts.

Wish me luck, world. ^^;

- TCA

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I’ve noticed something kinda weird... Lately, all of my dreams have had a common theme.

 

In these dreams, I need to go somewhere really important or need to leave wherever the dream starts off—in the past three, it’s been a forested residential area, and work twice. Like I <I>need</i> to leave—some kind of genocide in dream 1, flooding in dream 2 and going home in dream 3. But no matter how dire the situation is, I’m stalling and trying to gather up all my stuff or keep forgetting something and needing to go back.

 

This has been happening a lot. I wonder if my dreams are trying to tell me something, as dreams are occasionally wont to do. Or this could be like the time I dreamed I was pregnant and didn’t know who the father was. ^^; (Which in itself is weird. I don’t strike me as the type to not know who baby daddy is. It was never touched on in the dream, though. I kinda like my friend Elizabeth’s theory that it was Soundwave. x3)

 

NaNoWriMo kicks off in about eight days and I’m scared shitless over it. If I really wanna pull off the 50,000 words in thirty days, I’d have to write shy of 2000 a day. However, I have a good topic and a good support network so I think I’ll be able to pull this off. I hope.

 

Until then...

 

- TCA

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Welcome to PFD season in Alaska folks. *shakefist*

 

Oh, what’s PFD mean you ask? :O It meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeans... THIS: www.pfd.state.ak.us/

 

Basically every year everyone gets a check from the state for no real reason aside from the fact that you’re from Alaska.

 

These can be an absolute bitch when you’re a bank teller like me because every man woman and child and their sled dog is coming at you for the money. (Oh noes.) This year the check is a lot less than last time around—$1,305 versus $3,269. This time around is the direct deposits, so it’s just our customers on top of normal business, but when the paper checks get mailed out on the 22nd, it’s EVERYBODY and their brother’s cousin’s aunt’s sister’s former roommate. x_x; It’s because we’re the only bank left in town that doesn’t require you show two pieces of ID to cash a check without an account.

 

And I think we’re going to start being open on Saturdays. I hope not. That’s the day I go shopping and shit. We better not, but it’s not looking promising—the local credit union is going to be open Saturdays, then the local Wells Fargo decided they would... Now it’s really just a matter of time before my Saturdays get shot in the ass. Grrrrrrr...

 

Well, wish me luck, world. I need it.

 

-TCA

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Hello all! I'm (obviously) TheCrazyAlaskan-- some of you might recognize me as supergeek17 on fanfiction.net and DeviantArt.com, and / or as Dorkfish2009 on YouTube. I finally decided to join LJ. I have no idea what I'm doing. (Yes, I am a n00b. x3) Patience with me would be greatly appreciated, please and thank you.

--TCA

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